Finding My Passion !


Passion is feeling very strongly about something and obsession is becoming consumed by something.
Passion is something you have in your heart, obsession is of the mind.
Passion is something you care about and love; obsession is something you think about all the time.

It appears there is a thin line between passion and obsession.
Through losing, I received the gift of life. Now I get to give it away by sharing with great gratitude and joy.
Finding my passion was so hard to me because through the past process of living, I lost it. While in the process of pre-dying, I found it again.
I Found My Passion.
Talking to myself led me one day to realize; my past life and how it was. It was about three things; pleasing, proving and achieving. My thoughts were like; People must like me, so as to feel better about ME! I worked hard to please everyone in my life, even the people I didn’t like! It hardly mattered to me; other people’s approval was the source of my self-esteem. “Looking good” was my daily goal! I mean looking good in sacrificing me! I challenged me to gain value to the outsiders.
This thinking affected the entire fabric of my life. My life was a series of long hours, besides making sure that I never offended anyone around. I made impossible promises that were hard to keep because I was afraid to say “NO”, which added to me a serious of untold amounts of stress!
By constantly reaching to outside circumstances rather than taking charge of my life, I felt victimized and I lived in fear of “they” – whoever “they” were. The fact I was the youngest woman to hold a position and became responsible in many areas in job places.

I kept on; try harder, work longer, achieve more! I just knew I would be HAPPY! When I did the right thing that way! Losing ME! In indirect way of satisfying! I was driven by demands! Other than satisfying real ME!
Then I discovered that there is something wrong! I went my life pleasing, proving and achieving! What did it get to me? Tired! Broke! Emotionally depleted! Terribly afraid! Of tomorrow!

Then the Change happened one day after discovering that I just waste time, effort and life!
I started to get more focused, on ME! As I was the source for ME!
I started the changing process; I changed…My center-others- for happiness!
I gained immediate clarity and made a decision to live RIGHT!
I learned what it means to take care of MYSELF!
Most important, I began asking the question: Who am I? What am I doing here?

Previously my concern was: What does everyone else want? And how can I make them like me?
I was working hard to achieve that. Now I am working less. Because who likes me, likes me for me, not for anything else! I started to shift from being involved with the changing demands of the outside world to focus on what is in my heart. This is not an easy process, since I had spent my whole life looking outside for answers. Life will be lacked of passion, the zest for living; the sense of joy, creativity that truly comprises each one’s life.
Suddenly waking up, I had never really lived.
I started to do things I like & love doing them. Finding Passion!
The fact that we usually face that we had no “life”; we are just proving to others. Change, let passion becomes our reason for living. We have to commit ourselves to it “MYSELF to ME” wholly and completely to me!
We usually have no idea what it means!
We have to know that our daily purpose, to get up and do something passionate each day.
Taking classes of things we love, attend gatherings, read a book, walking…etc. Things that we never thought about before and we have to start to do it now. These things that will add to me spiritually, not withdraw me to death or anything else.
They usually call these things; energy boosters, because they boost our energy again and make us feel strong to face other reality face of life.

Make a list; I made a list myself of things I want to do, and as I do some the list grow up.
Experiencing every moment left, a challenge deserves to be taken. Feeling positive afterwards, will take us to less energy to produce better results.
We don’t have time to waste; time goes and never comes back!
Exploring self passion on daily basis, produce miracles.
What are the results of commitment to passion?
While I can not prove, I don’t doubt it also. I believe passion is the strongest force in the universe and the magnet for all one’s good happiness, power, joy, abundance and health for mind, body & spirit. It produces ENERGY! Like running, it creates endorphins in the brain that boost and protect the immune system.
For me the process of change brought great relevance to living!
Bringing as much life to living as possible. Passion is not for the lucky or talented, it is the fire waiting to be ignited in every soul.
Through losing, I received the gift of life.
Till we meet!

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